The Last Day of Classes!

Today is the last day of classes for the semester!!! Yay! I'm so excited, not only for the Roach, but for the rest of the students. It's been a tough year for many, and I'm glad for the relief that the summer brings. The Roach has exams in the coming 6 days: 3 Thursday, 2 Friday, and 1 Monday. The two hardest are Thursday, but he'll still need to study well for the rest of them. Anyway, pray with me that the Roach will do well, and that God will help him to recall what he's studied when the exams come.

After that is graduation stuff! Family will come, friends will leave, and parties will happen! It just seems like a bittersweet time.

Then, the first week of May is the James Seminar! It'll hopefully be a good class, because it's just a good book.

Then comes all of the packing and moving....blah, blah, blah......
The beginning of June will be beautiful for 2 reasons:

1. we won't have to move anymore, and
2. WE'LL BE LIVING IN GRAND HAVEN, MI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (enough said about that)

Anyway, as I've continued digesting Buck Naked Faith, Sandras asked a crucial question: "Are you so consumed with trying to do something for God that you aren't allowing room just to be God's?" (p 99) This was/is me! For some reason I think I need to do something for God, because then he'll love me more/better. I still find it hard to believe that he could love me just as I am, as a weak, selfish, fear-controlled person. And the best part is this: Jesus loves us ALL like that!!! Letting that sink has been challenging....and freeing. This freedom, through Christ's love, has freed me (ever so slowly) to love people too...and not just the people that I loved before. And, when I have an opportunity to tell someone about this new discovery, I feel kinda silly inside...as I think of all of the little details I worry about, and how they dictate my actions (or lack thereof), and how nothing seems to matter except that Jesus loves me.

That reminds me of a song I used to sing to myself, during the first semester of my second year, just about everyday. It's an old hymn, and most people think it's just for the kiddies. However, the deep truth that Jesus loves me, blows my mind!!! I'm amazed........sing it if you know the tune:

Jesus loves me, this I know
for the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
they are weak, but He is strong!

Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me! This I know,
As He loved so long ago,
Taking children on His knee,
Saying, “Let them come to Me.”

Jesus loves me still today,
Walking with me on my way,
Wanting as a friend to give
Light and love to all who live.

Jesus loves me! He who died
Heaven’s gate to open wide
He will wash away my sin,
Let His little child come in.

Jesus loves me! He will stay
Close beside me all the way
Thou hast bled and died for me,
I will henceforth live for Thee.