What hasn't changed?

Thanksgiving as a married woman, with my new family and friends here in Michigan seems incredible...so much change in only six months! And in just over one week we'll be changing scenes again. So much change can do only two things: 1) defeat, discourage, or depress the introvert in me, or 2) challenge, change, or create in me the beautiful woman that God knows I am. The choice is totally mine. That's a huge responsibility...one which I have tried to ignore. But as I face more change in the coming months, I want to choose to see it all as an opportunity to grow, to let God break down the walls I've so elaborately built. It has been these very walls that have kept me from knowing who God is! Such a silly idea isn't it? To think that I could meticulously build walls that man can not break through, and think that God could not move them either. God can move mountains and heal the broken....but he surely can't break down the walls around my heart. The only reason that these walls still stand is because He loves me enough to wait for me to choose Him. I will never know just how much Christ loves me until I let him in, to break down those walls that I've been building for almost two decades now! What love is this!? Why wouldn't I choose this love?! It is in this love that I will see myself for who God made me to be, as a wonderful creation, loved more than I can fathom. In the coming months I hope to begin to see this love for what it really is, and stop hiding behind my own feeble walls.

So, what hasn't changed? Love hasn't changed. God has loved me just as much today as He did 15 years ago when I first found out that He loved me. Love hasn't changed.

Grab a mug, pull up a chair

Where do we go from here? This is the question that has been dancing in my head lately. In the coming weeks my husband and I will be packing our things, and preparing to leave our newest family, Watermark. "What a sad thing to start with!!" you must be thinking. I do have to admit this saddens my heart, however at the same time I look forward to see what God will do in the coming year. We don't know where we're going from Grand Haven, other than back to Sussex, New Brunswick, Canada, but it is with anticipation that we pack our things.

I do look forward to meeting up with old friends, spending time with those I've grown to cherish from Bethany Bible College. My heart longs for the place Roach and I will someday soon call our own home though. I anticipate the day when we move to a city or town and know we'll be there for longer than six months. In the mean time, though, God has some more work to do on me.

Anyway, as life happens I'll find time to make a pot of coffee, sit down and share with you.